I made her blog!!! http://momastery.com/blog/2014/05/09/wait-better-show/
OK, realistically I’m but a mere footnote to Glennon’s amazing Love Firestorm message–of showing up just as you are to make the world a better place. And that none of us are perfect. And that improving the world improves ourselves. She recapped the night in Herndon when 450 brave, beautiful souls got together and made the world a better place. It was such a powerful night, my friend tells people simply, “It was life changing.”
I started reading her essay…read read read…scroll scroll scroll…nod nod nod…recognize certain attendees…remember the discussions…recall the course of events….scroll scroll scrOMG THAT’S ME! SQUEAL!!!
Then, in such an ironic twist to accompany this wonderful essay of accepting oneself as is, I immediately started thinking “OMG, I look so fat in this. I look like I’m pregnant for God’s sake. I am most certainly not pregnant. You don’t even want to know when the last time I had such relations was. But here I am looking like I’m carrying twins. Granted, I did eat 3 sandwiches that afternoon, but cut me some slack–I did just run a half marathon that morning and I was hungry. And they were small sandwiches. OMG the entire world can see how unflattering I look.”
And then I took a deep breath and climbed out my crazy tree. I remembered that entire evening, and cried again. Not for the poor choice in flowy-yet-trendy outfit and camera angle. But for the love that filled that church, for the compassion everyone showed up with, for the courage each of us carried in our hearts. For the safety and intimacy that enveloped 450 strangers–that we created together. For the good works and love we were all there to share with the world.
I am proud of that evening, of being a part of that. I am grateful for the opportunity to change the world one act of kindness by another. I am grateful for this opportunity Life and God has afforded me to practice self-acceptance and self-compassion, no matter the clothing choice or body shape. I need to continue to practice my body image issues. I need to practice focusing on what really matters in life. I need to practice remembering the priorities in life. I need to practice remembering gratitudes in life. I need to thank Glennon for her continued gifts to me, and to the world. For her reminder and encouragement to show up just the way I am, all jacked up.